Ahhhhhh. . . the healing process has begun!!!  I am feeling MUCH better & MUCH stronger the last two days!  I needed to get angry, get out all the negative.

In reading all my previous posts. . .please do not think I am blaming the entire failure on the one who left. . . I am not an easy person to deal with, put up with and to try to love.  I have my own problems, demons & issues as well.  I am making changes every day and learning how to be a more positive person.  I started doing that May of 2010. . .apparently I wasn't making the changes quick enough or drastically enough. . . But that is simply God's way of telling me - it wasn't right!  He put that person in my life to give me a jump start on becoming the person I need to be for the right one!

For you nosey little Parker's, stalker's & what-not. . . .I am the LEAST arrogant person alive.  In this past relationship - I WAS the one burnt. . . I was lied to, mislead, and left in the dust after fully supporting this person for 15.5 months.  I didn't do it because I expected anything in return. . I did it because I loved this person, believed in this person, trusted in this person and the future we were supposedly building. . . I was judged by my children, judged by the people I had removed from my life. . .I gave up my kids, removed everyone from my life, found the job he currently has and am happy for him that while at that job he found the "love of his life". . . .But most importantly - we were friends before dating, were remaining friends afterwards. . .& then BLAM. . . .I have the plague because he found someone new. . . .the way it was handled way childish & cowardly. . . I thought we'd always have our friendship. . .but apparently he is not a true friend.  I understand no more calling, texting me everyday, several times a day. . .but to just up & end the friendship without even bothering to say he was doing so. . .

Funny, yet sad thing is. . .he told me that he had actually been done way back in like January/February of this year. . . yet he never mentioned this to me. . he kept using me until the end of July when he FINALLY got a job. . . He told everyone BUT me that he was done with us.  Kept telling me he loved me & things were going to be great & huge improvements were coming with his job. . .

Anyway. . .I am DONE putting out all the negative about him. . . I am breathing easier, I am not afraid every day anymore. . .and am coming away from this a stronger, better, happier person!